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I love walking the journey head down and set watching one in front of the other providing protecting creating restoring renewing taking care of you taking care of me praying for the day that I can step out step in to the freedom that's within snap shot of the big picture then back in the moment the big picture then back in the moment taking care of you taking care of me am I really taking care of me what do I need beauty vigorous walk into the unknown is this a yes and this a no how will I know the big reveal breaking through the heart turning to steal being where I'm supposed to be taking care of you taking care of me living in freedom living living in love living in laughter time to be let it be being community let it be speaking words of heart mind and soul letting go

Proverbs 8:34 Blessed is the man that heareth me, watching daily at my gates, waiting at the posts of my doors. WAITING on the  LORD   is not easy.   You  work on your self.  Praying Lord... is it my time.  I  am in your word. I am in community. I am Listening and  ready for you to send me. Is it my time? I am patiently waiting, watching, discerning the next move you would have me take.    I am sitting  Still I am sitting  Still I am sitting  Still  I am trying to sit still but it is hard.  The world around is growing busier and busier. When I stop to wait on you LORD , I am restless. I must do something . Fill the still moment with some thing some one I am waiting  on you LORD.  Sitting on the steps of this  overwhelming door. What is behind it .  When is it going to open. Is is going to open.  I reach for the iron door handle. Maybe it is open...

So often the circumstances in our lives dictate the ebb and flow of our lives. We become tangled in the emotion of our situation. Situations positive or negative should not push us back in forth between happiness and sadness, peace and chaos, community and isolation, satisfaction and desperation, create and devestate. When obstacles present themselves we rise up to control them. If I could do this, have this,  change this...then all would be well. We spend so much time trying. Trying to achieve, trying to produce, trying to provide, trying to be who everyone wants us to be. We also try to hide the things we don't want others to see. We are controlling our situation. We are controlling what people see. The process is exhausting. If anyone asked me, "Do you hear God?" My answer would be yes. He moves me and I listen. What I have found is that I hear him, I see the vision that he has for my life and I can vaguely see the promise land in the distance. I know it is there,...

May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing to you…AMEN It is hard for me to put words to this post. It does not surprise me the minute I typed the words "it is hard to put words to this post" The following lyrics came forth from my radio. "Nothing formed against me shall stand You hold the whole world in your hand I am holding on to your promises you are faithful you are faithful I know who Goes before me I know who stands behind the God of angel armies is always by my side the one who reigns forever he is a friend of mine The God of Angel Army is always by my side. " The first time I ever heard this song was the Sunday before my sweet Bonnie B passed away. I have struggled for YEARS with stepping into the plan and purpose God has called me to. It was very clear to me in 1996 when God spoke to me audibly in the main sanctuary of St. John the Divine. God said, "I have a job for you to do." The message that day ...