SURRENDER THAT...

Proverbs 8:34 Blessed is the man that heareth me, watching daily at my gates, waiting at the posts of my doors. WAITING on the  LORD   is not easy.   You  work on your self.  Praying Lord... is it my time.  I  am in your word. I am in community. I am Listening and  ready for you to send me. Is it my time? I am patiently waiting, watching, discerning the next move you would have me take.    I am sitting  Still I am sitting  Still I am sitting  Still  I am trying to sit still but it is hard.  The world around is growing busier and busier. When I stop to wait on you LORD , I am restless. I must do something . Fill the still moment with some thing some one I am waiting  on you LORD.  Sitting on the steps of this  overwhelming door. What is behind it .  When is it going to open. Is is going to open.  I reach for the iron door handle. Maybe it is open...

So often the circumstances in our lives dictate the ebb and flow of our lives. We become tangled in the emotion of our situation. Situations positive or negative should not push us back in forth between happiness and sadness, peace and chaos, community and isolation, satisfaction and desperation, create and devestate. When obstacles present themselves we rise up to control them. If I could do this, have this,  change this...then all would be well. We spend so much time trying. Trying to achieve, trying to produce, trying to provide, trying to be who everyone wants us to be. We also try to hide the things we don't want others to see. We are controlling our situation. We are controlling what people see. The process is exhausting. If anyone asked me, "Do you hear God?" My answer would be yes. He moves me and I listen. What I have found is that I hear him, I see the vision that he has for my life and I can vaguely see the promise land in the distance. I know it is there,...