I wake up at 4:00am every morning. I used to feel frustrated...why am I waking up. As I step into the vison that God has shown me, a vision of wholeness and healing for his children, cultivating a place for them to go to connect with HIM in the presence of the HOLY SPIRIT, I yielded to the frustration. Perhaps this is what he wants for me. This frustrating situation is actually what he wants. I began to pray for HIS perspective. I want to seek you first Lord, in EVERYTHING every situation I will magnify you Lord. Now I wake at 4:00am, still sleepy, but I ask "Lord CAN I really do what you have called me to do? It seems really big...too BIG, I am not sure if I can do it Lord." As I cry out to HIM my fear and doubts rise up, the trembling and darkness from past failures rises from my soul and as the storm circles around the beginning of my day HIS voice embraces me and holds me so tightly. HIS embrace captivates me and in that still moment I can hear HIS wor...
Each day there is something I hold on to. A place in the past, fear of the future, uncertainty. It is impossible for me to move in fear. I can only move in courage. This is a place that I hope to drop fear, guilt and shame into the abyss, knowing that I am healing.