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Proverbs 8:34 Blessed is the man that heareth me, watching daily at my gates, waiting at the posts of my doors. WAITING on the  LORD   is not easy.   You  work on your self.  Praying Lord... is it my time.  I  am in your word. I am in community. I am Listening and  ready for you to send me. Is it my time? I am patiently waiting, watching, discerning the next move you would have me take.    I am sitting  Still I am sitting  Still I am sitting  Still  I am trying to sit still but it is hard.  The world around is growing busier and busier. When I stop to wait on you LORD , I am restless. I must do something . Fill the still moment with some thing some one I am waiting  on you LORD.  Sitting on the steps of this  overwhelming door. What is behind it .  When is it going to open. Is is going to open.  I reach for the iron door handle. Maybe it is open...

So often the circumstances in our lives dictate the ebb and flow of our lives. We become tangled in the emotion of our situation. Situations positive or negative should not push us back in forth between happiness and sadness, peace and chaos, community and isolation, satisfaction and desperation, create and devestate. When obstacles present themselves we rise up to control them. If I could do this, have this,  change this...then all would be well. We spend so much time trying. Trying to achieve, trying to produce, trying to provide, trying to be who everyone wants us to be. We also try to hide the things we don't want others to see. We are controlling our situation. We are controlling what people see. The process is exhausting. If anyone asked me, "Do you hear God?" My answer would be yes. He moves me and I listen. What I have found is that I hear him, I see the vision that he has for my life and I can vaguely see the promise land in the distance. I know it is there,...

May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing to you…AMEN It is hard for me to put words to this post. It does not surprise me the minute I typed the words "it is hard to put words to this post" The following lyrics came forth from my radio. "Nothing formed against me shall stand You hold the whole world in your hand I am holding on to your promises you are faithful you are faithful I know who Goes before me I know who stands behind the God of angel armies is always by my side the one who reigns forever he is a friend of mine The God of Angel Army is always by my side. " The first time I ever heard this song was the Sunday before my sweet Bonnie B passed away. I have struggled for YEARS with stepping into the plan and purpose God has called me to. It was very clear to me in 1996 when God spoke to me audibly in the main sanctuary of St. John the Divine. God said, "I have a job for you to do." The message that day ...

Thank you lord that you are so patient with me. Lord you have been tapping me on the shoulder in so many ways. Thank you for the way you have spoken to me through Bonnie’s death. The picture you gave me.  Picture the journey that each person makes as we are created in our mother ‘s wombs, fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139). Then we are birthed into life   learning how to step into the purpose God has for our lives, through a cycle of obedience, mistakes, consequences and faith. Then God tells the story of our bodies returning to dust (Genesis 3:17-19).  We let go of this world and are birthed from life into eternal life. When we are heaven ready, we step into a realm of Glory our earthly bodies could never handle.  Exodus 33:21-23 God  said, “Look, here is a place right beside me. Put yourself on this rock. When my Glory passes by, I’ll put you in the cleft of the rock and cover you with my hand until I’ve passed by...

"I cry out for the hand of mercy to heal me. For I am weak and I need your love to free me. Oh Lord, my rock, my strength in weakness, come RESCUE me oh LORD. You are my hope, your promise never fails me and my desire, is to follow you forever. For you are GOOD for you are GOOD, for you are GOOD to me. For you are GOOD, so GOOD for you are GOOD to me. " I was so inspired by BROOKE MASON's  incredible word of healing last night at  RADIANT WOMEN  . She preached from LUKE 17:11-19  about the 10 Lepers that were healed. Lepers were unclean and were shunned to suburb outside of Jerusalem. As we have learned recently the Samaritan people were already shunned. Jews on the journey to Jerusalem would walk 30 miles out of the way just so that they would not come in contact with them. In the leper colonies the Samaritans were the shunned of the shunned.  " Jesus was still pressing toward Jerusalem, taking a road that went along the border between Samaria  (con...

This morning I was doing my morning mediation. I was listening to a my ABUNDANT CREATIVE call from last week. We are looking at money. We are to clear our canvas and let go of the understanding we have about money. We are digging into our first good and bad experience with money and how that has shaped our relationship with money over the years.  I am stepping into my divine purpose and it is calling for being organized, bills paid,  debt paid, being in a place to expand my territory. This is a real obstacle for me. I always seem to "forget" bill due dates, getting caught up with finance charges and more. Why is this. Looking back to my childhood I am hunting for when a word of irresponsibility was spoken over me. When I began to feel entitled. I would charge Hamburgers and shakes for all my friends at Avalon Drug Store. Charge it to my mom and dad. They will take care of it later. Was I reacting to the fact that I did not have as much as my friends? I was running wi...

A few months back I had the opportunity to pick up a few vintage items from a friend. She was changing this design in her room and letting go of the shabby chic vibe. I could not pass up this beautiful antique lamp. So excited to get home and rearrange things to make room for this lamp. Found the perfect spot for it. Dusted the room. Made the bed. Closed the curtains and went to turn it on...no light. Wow. I was disappointed. Took the light bulb out. Got a replacement light bulb. Replaced it. Sat down in the chair to read. Flipped the switch...nothing. What? There was a problem with the wiring. After all this, my beautiful lamp, that was a perfect accent to my room did not light up. This week I started a 6 week tele-training THE ABUNDANT CREATIVE through  FIRE TREE STUDIOS w/ MELISSA D'ANTONI . One of our first assignments is to journal on a daily basis when and how you feel connect to your creative source. After sitting quietly, the image of the lamp came to my mind. Beaut...